A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself and especially to feel, or not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at any moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to - letting a person be what he really is.
I hope that you have rel friends in your life Atria, people that accept you the way you are, with all your imperfections, with whom you can feel totally honest and free, with whom you can be just yourself. I hope when you become interested in a boy you will first look in him for a fiend qualities and won't be fulled by an artificial charm or good looks. I believe that real love can only last if it develops from a friendship and is build on honesty, care and trust. What matters long term is not a passion or the way the other person looks like, but how they make you feel, how open you can be with them and how strong is your friendship. I am very lucky to have found a real friend in my wife and I hope you will be able to have the same in your future relationship with a man you choose to spend the rest of your life with.
I am your dad Atria.